FOR A CHANGE

Lua Nova, 26 de Outubro de 2011


Lies after lies after more damned lies. It's just something I got used to... I'm not even surprised at that anymore! What surprises me is my stupidity! What made me believe this time would be any different?
All I want is to disappear somewhere I'll never see you again...
Who am I kidding? I'm not even finished thinking and I already know it's not the truth. You're not the problem: I am.
Since long ago that I'm aware that human beings are flawed creatures. Life turns them that way.
They mimic what they see, learn what works for them and what doesn't and finally achieve to get better. Lying - I came to learn - is one of their favorite subjects to learn. It allows them to stand out more or to lay lower than the rest... I, as one of them, also learned and perfected this "science" to use it as a shield.
It works perfectly for my purposes: keeping everyone out and be accepted by the norms of society. However, there are people who I let in... After analysing them over and over again to make sure I don't get hurt I stop the lies and show them my true face - I'm never wrong about them.
I learn to enjoy the truth from them but the rest of the world is still so full of lies. My friends tell me that it isn't as bad as I paint it and that I should do the same thing I did with them and let others know my real self... Who'd know if I wouldn't be surprised? No, I'm not. It's as I always expect - more lies!
Am I asking too much? To not be surrounded with people filling your mind with endless rubbish all while you just nod and smile, pretending that everything is okay even though it's not?
I want so bad to be wrong, but I'm not. I want to believe that if I don't lie, I'm not lied too.
I want someone that doesn't lie to me and that won't ever do.
I just want someone I can trust for a change.