Lua Nova, 19 de Julho de 2012
"Stop!" I was running towards her. She was about to get on her bike. I needed to scream louder. "I said STOP!" That made her look. When I got to her I took her hands in mine. "Please don't go..."
"But, I shouldn't... I have to go, eventually." She replied.
It was the truth. "I know, but don't go today." I softened my grip on her hands. "I can't make you stay, if you don't want to. However, if you have the tiniest hope that we can get through this, don't go... Don't make me let you go." I pleaded.
She closed her eyes and shook her head. "I- I don't know. I'm so confused and I need some time to figure something out." She opened her eyes and looked me straight in the eye. "I'm going to my parents' for now. They have been living there since I remember... There, everything is familiar and that is what I need now."
I was taken aback. "You know you can count on me, right?" She nodded but before she could speak I continued. "Then stay... You know better than to lie to yourself: you're not going away because you need to be somewhere familiar to you, you're going away because you want to run away from this."
I watched as tears fell from her brown eyes and pulled her to an embrace. She cried and sobbed into my chest for a while and all I could do was hush her and hold her tightly hoping that would be enough to make her feel better. When she calmed down some more she confessed between sobs. "But I'm so scared! They said that tomorrow they had the results. I'm not sure that I want to know it anymore! I've never felt more scared in my whole life!" She surrendered. "I'm lost! What do I do?"
"I'm scared too! But I'm here for you. I don't know if tomorrow everything will be alright... I can't promise you that. What I know is that our love is real. It's not a perfect love: it's a true love that will never die. Remember that!" I let go of her. "If that's what you really want, I'll drive you to your parents' house. On the other hand, if you want to stay, we'll go wherever you want and spend our time without thinking about what tomorrow will bring." I reached for her. "Whatever you choose, I'll go with you. I won't let you alone."
She wondered for a while and decided. "I knew you would." And then kissed me. We remained in silence for a few moments until she spoke again. "Home. Take me home."
